Sunday, August 24, 2008

23 Years Ago

I'm 23 today. I've been thinking about the concept of time all week. It's such a finicky thing. It rushes past and then drags on slowly, then rushes again. I never have enough or I have too much to think on. Along with the notion of time, I've been thinking about timing. I never have good timing. Anytime something awesome could happen it's at the wrong time. My life has been a series of could-be-a-good-things if it were a different time and place. Yikes. I didn't mean to go off like that... this is supposed to be a YAY post. lol.

I'm such a brooder these days. I'm sure I'm annoying everyone to death. :) Anyway, birthday stuff!

Kris was super roomie this weekend and made sure I had a good birthday. I got a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a FANTASTIC sapphire necklace and engraved business card holder. Also she woke me up with a Starbucks White Chocolate Mocha and we did dinner Saturday at Red Lobster... mmmm cheddar bay biscuits... *shivers* On my actual birthday I cleaned the apartment... lol... I'm so old. Then Kris, Liam, Scott, Sonia and I went to Olive Garden. It was good to actually see people. I was thinkin it would be a wash almost, but all of them made it good. ANd of course everyone that saw it was my B-day on facebook made me happy! :) Thanks guys! Scott and SOnia were awesome and got me a lovely star necklace and a book I've been wanting for a while! So yeah, I have a good group that puts up with my shenanigans! OH! And roomie got me a cookie dough cake... mmmmm. I blew out the candles and kept one for good luck for the year. I hope what I wished for comes true. But I wish for it every year and sometimes I wonder if it's just too lofty of a desire.

I'm still trying...

Thursday, August 21, 2008

O, O it's Magic.... You Know....


Went to the Orioles/ Red Sox game at Camden Yards last night and it was amazing! O's won 11-6 so I'm a happy gal. :)

I am sad that it's the last game of the season I'll be able to go to, but at least I was with good company (Kris) and the game was fantastic!

One of the best nights of the summer by far!

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Sighs of Relief

Photo by: Me

Well, I guess someone is looking after me up there... either that or God is a blogger and read my last post. I got a phone call from my doctor FINALLY. And I'm cancer-free!!! :) YAY! Which means, no immediate surgery which is good. I just have to keep an eye on this thing for 6 months and get retested then if it's still around. So lets hope it goes away... but in the meantime I'm gonna name it. Suggestions?

So thank God that's off my mind at least for a while. Thank you sooo much to everyone who sent their support through this. It really did feel good to know people cared. Sometimes we lose sight of who matters to us and who keeps us in the back of their minds even if you haven't talked forever. Love you guys <3

So now that that's over, I can turn my focus to the Fall semester coming up. I can't believe the 2 weeks I got off is practically over. And this semester is going to be a whirlwind! I'm taking 3 Masters classes, teaching 2 Public Speaking courses, starting the Thesis (which I'm not sure what I'm doing yet lol), applying to PhD programs, prepping for a few conferences, traveling, seeing family at some point?, and starting the novel (yes, I'm gonna suck it up and do it). So yeah, if I tend to let my communication slip just e-slap me in the face or yell at me and I'll snap back. Just a preemptive apology. lol.

"Be Safe"

Thursday, August 14, 2008

The Waiting Game...

This is getting entirely too old. I've been on pins and needles for weeks now and I still know nothing about my health. I've been in and out of the friggin hospital and left with more questions than answers. To those that don't know, don't freak out, I'm fine... just trying to figure out if something I found is hazardous to my health and/or needs to be removed. But seriously, LET ME KNOW PLEASE! I'm tired of tossing in my sleep every night because the thought of a scalpel touching my skin makes me shake.

And of course since I'm not feeling good and am stressed I'm not much of myself lately. Then people wonder what's up with me or act like I'm being stupid. My sincere apologies for not being chipper and cheerfully sarcastic like I usually am. I'm really trying ya'll. :(

I feel like I'm just one big epic fail at this point. My life causes frustration and stress to others. There are times when I want to crawl into a very large dark hole and just wait till the storm passes. I'd say this is one of those times. Just to sit silently and listen to the nothingness. Just relax and wait. Then come back out when the dust settles back down. I'm just so tired.

Trying to keep my head above water is the easy part. It's harder to not be tempted to just float away.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Oh God, another one!!

You'd think I'd get tired of making new Blogs/Journals, but I never seem to. I had a LJ account for YEARS... actually... I still have it, I just don't use it anymore. But ya, I was reading my friend Jessi's blog thingy and decided I want one. I don't bitch enough on my away messages lol. So ta daaaaa! Let's see how long it takes for me to forget I have this too. ;)